Pain

So on a scale of 1 to 10 where 10 is the worst pain, Michael had been reporting his pain levels at 7 or 8 for the last few days (Sun, Mon, Tue). Tuesday, he kept asking why we didn't have a hand gun in the house and asking me if I thought I could shoot someone. With every appointment I kept asking if this pain was expected and they said it was within the time frame for residual pain from the biopsy procedure but it would likely subside soon. Tuesday, I called back and managed to talk one of the nurse practitioners into tweaking his pain meds but she just replaced the Tylenol with some prescription strength Ibuprofen (Advil). It didn't really help much.

But yesterday, we got the latest doctor to take his pain seriously. After a few questions he said we'd given this particular drug (Vicodin) a good enough try and it was time to try something stronger. After taking some of the new pills (oxycodone) at 6pm, a few hours later, he said his pain was down to 3 and he was dozing peacefully and let me snuggle up to him and watch hockey on tv together. A little slice of heaven I tell you.

Unfortunately, at 6am he was chanting 'tractor tractor tractor' for saying 'intractable pain' but hopefully it will subside with the next dose in a few minutes. Please let it help.

( what it feels like for me just watching )

If it hurts me this much just to watch I don't know how he stands it.